But you're not allowed
An unfortunate slight
- Alanis Morissette - 'Uninvited' -
Ow. How can a two letter word express so much pain? It would be fair to warn you that this post is going to be shamefully self-pitying as I've just been slighted and feel the need to get it off my chest.
I was a bit miffed, you see, to learn that all my friends attended a party the other night, and I was the only one uninvited :( I know the group too well to know that the slight was completely unintentional, and if I had any inkling that any of them read this blog then I wouldn't be posting this. I know they would be devastated to hear that I feel left out. They probably thought I was working, or something...
I know sometimes my work hours and time away visiting Spud can interfere with social gatherings, but I could have made this particular party. I was only working until 6 that night.
This isn't the first time that I've felt left out lately. I have another group of friends who, until quite recently, I was good friends with, but we seem to have lost touch. I don't know if they still meet up, but if they do, then they haven't invited me along. I haven't seen them in months, and last time I seem to remember that it was me who organised the meeting.
It's made me feel quite isolated and insecure. I appreciate that the next year or so will be a real test to my friendships, and I'm beginning to see the ones which won't remain intact after the upheaval of my move. I've more or less come to terms with it, and I have a couple of friendships that I know, without a doubt, will survive.
I've decided that one answer is to invite all my friends to the party I plan to throw for my 21st, and then perhaps I will receive some invites in return, whether to parties, or just to meet up generally. That way, hopefully I'll know where I stand. I apologise again for this blog. I prefer to write upbeat and uplifting posts, and this one is more or less the complete opposite.